I feel like I'd like to have someone in my life and there are no prospects and I have neither the energy nor the confidence to identify any and that makes me feel lonely.
When I go out into the world I see people who are hurting, animals that are abandoned or lost and a city in serious disrepair. That makes me feel sad.
Both make me eat.
So, today I ate crackers and cheese and yogurt and fruit and meatloaf and potatoes and vegetables and popcorn and roast beef and mushrooms and a tortilla. I feel finished eating now, but I did have a whirlwind session.
What could I have done differently? What could I have done to comfort myself in my feelings of sadness and loneliness? Is it as simple as saying to myself that I'm not alone and I'm not sad?
Fuck, I don't even know. I want to lose weight. I'm tired of failing. Why is this so hard? I just want to get myself under control.
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