I Gained a Pound and a Half

My depression and hunger got the better of me this week and I ate too much resulting in a gain. I wasn't devastated, though I did spend the day eating White Castle and potato chips. I'm going to get back on the program tomorrow. I'm thinking about a liquid diet so that I can possibly lose 20 pounds by the time I weigh in next time at Weigh to Go. Maybe I could try some combination of Atkins shakes and vegetable juices.

I went to a support group this evening at my surgeon's office. I found it helpful. There were a lot of people there and those that have had their surgery were very positive. I got to sit next to the one person in the room that had lap band. She said that the loss is slow and steady and she's happy with her decision.

I don't feel understood or supported by those close to me in my decision to go this route. It's okay. People don't understand a decision to volunteer for surgery. They think that I should work harder to make lifestyle changes that will help me meet my goals. I feel like I've been through it all and this is the last thing left for me to try. If this doesn't work then I'll do whatever it takes to live fat and happy. I'll do as many meds, therapy and affirmations as I possibly can to make myself tolerable to me. I have to try this, though, in spite of what people think.

I'm going to bed.