It's New Year's Eve and I feel calm and optimistic. I've worked out the last three days and I feel good. My back is bothering me, but I believe with movement that I can strengthen it and experience less pain. I have also gained quite a few pounds, which could be contributing to the pain and weakness.
The challenge for me is staying focused on small steps. I am tempted to think about the fact that I need to lose more than 80 pounds to get below 200. That's a lot. That's a whole lot. I am working to train myself to think about small successes. The fact that I'm back in the gym is a success. The fact that I haven't given up on myself in spite of my ongoing challenges with my weight is a success. In addition to weight loss, I'll have a string of other small successes that will pave my way to my ultimate success of achieving a healthier weight.
So, what am I thinking this New Year's Eve? Well, I don't assign much significance to the changing of one year to the next. I suppose that the landmarks for me are successfully relocating my mother to a place where she's happy, at peace and safe and getting through the second holiday season without my dad. Those for me are transition points that liberate me to move on to the next point.
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Good for you for focusing on the positive steps you can take! That will enable you to build up some momentum to take you in the direction you want to go this year. Good luck and I'll be following your progress!
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