Is this as good as it gets?

I have been in therapy most of my adult life and on meds for depression for the past three years. I have set goals, achieved them and still I exist in a state that is just bearable. I, in all honesty, feel bad. I feel self-conscious, trapped, overwhelmed and sad. I have fleeting moments of excitement, happiness, and productivity, but by and large I find my life and myself, well, unbearable.


Is this as good as it gets? I have been working on this for many years to no avail, and I feel that I have neither the energy to keep working on it nor to go on living in this constant state of discontent. I don't want to admit that, but it feels true for me. If I could just identify what hurts so badly I could burn it out of my brain.


Is it possible to achieve happiness? Is it true that we all deserve happiness? Can I just get a little contentment? Actually, I'd prefer peace.